You know, I really hate when I spend days thinking of all the things I need to write about and update on in here and then I get her to do it...and forget it all. ugh.

Basically, things are going good despite all that is/was going on. Alot of change is happening but I really feel like I'm growing and learning from it all, and I'm happy.  Like, right now I know my priorities and I'm actually reading all the material for classes (see, Mark is a good influence on me!).  Last semester I would just put it off until test time and then it was just overwelming. I just feel like this semester is going to go REALLY well. I just feel it. I have this hopeful outlook on life right now.  My dreams and visions for life are coming back (writing a book someday, helping others, etc.) and I just feel so much more alive and well...happy. That's God working.  This is how I used to be, this is how I want to be. I love this feeling  

Today I made an appointment with the local pregnancy center to vounteer some time there.  Tuesdays and Thursdays I have pretty much all day to be there. Not that I would do that because I still have homework and other things to do, but I like knowing I have free time to get everything in I need/want to do.  I'm pretty sure the center just changed it's name and is now a Christian based center, which I love because that is exactly where I see myself working someday.  I want to be able to talk with girls that are pregnant and other birthmoms but I don't know if I'll be able to do that since I'm so young and inexperienced (not inexperienced personally, but schooling wise, they wouldn't want me counseling or something I'm sure). I'm just happy I'll be in there period,  I can observe and see all the things that go on and get a feel for how my job might be like someday. I am thrilled, thrilled at the thought of helping others, learning about my career someday and just because this is my passion, this is what I thrive off of.  The only thing I'm nervous about, the ride there and back. I have to take the bus and I won't go into my fears of that.  I'll just keep praying God will protect me.

I don't know why but right now I feel like I need to volunteer my time right now rather than be looking for a job. Not that  money isn't nice and a necessity right now, for some reason I feel like this volunteering is going to lead to other things.  Who knows, I just know I feel strongly about this and I'm excited I have this opportunity. 

It snowed again this weekend, not very much though, just an inch or two.  It was CRAZY windy though so it was unbearable to be outside for me so I didn't really play in it this time. Mark bought a sled so we have upgraded from the cafeteria trays ;-)  Maybe next time I'll get to try it when it's not so miserable to be outside. I did however (all the things I wanted to write about are coming back to me!) manage to make my first fall here at school. You see, my school is notorious for snow and ice and well, people falling on it.  Sunday was my first fall, and it hurt.  Silly me decided to twirl on ice with books and bags in my hands (aka, no balance) and I fell. It's so weird when you fall how you fast it comes and you're like "whoa, how'd that happen?!"  I hit my knee kinda hard (and have a bruise now) so I was laughing and crying at the same time.  Mark laughed pretty hard at me too, thanks Mark. 

Sunday, Mark and I went to a church I'd been to before but he hadn't.  I'm really excited because this time I (we) both feel like we've found a place we both enjoy and get alot out of.  Wee!  See, before I had went to the college service there and didn't really like it so we tried the regular service.  So, hopefully this is the place for us.  We also are thinking of going on a college retreat with this church in a few weeks. It's really cheap and looks like it will be a really great fun, growing, learning, meeting new people, experiencing God kinda trip (not to mention in a beautiful location!).  I'm excited. I'm expecting alot so hopefully it meets all that I'm hoping it will be.

Tonight is the premire of American Idol! EEK. I don't know why I am so excited really.  The beginning isn't even that great anyways, I think it's more about the time I spend with other people watching it so we can be girly girls and say things like "omg! I can't believe he just did that!" or Wow, she is so good." or something retarded like that. WEE!

Ok, I think I'm going to be really weird and out of character for me and get AHEAD on reading and homework. I tell you, something is wrong with me.  But I like it.

I feel productive.