Today has been awesome. Mostly because of shopping, and well, I'm a girl and good deals and good fitting clothes makes me excited. Mark got some too!
This past weekend was great. Mark and I rode together, he dropped me off at my Mom's and he went on to his house. We mainly lounged around Friday watching a movie and snuggling kitties. Saturday we went to see Avalon (a Christian band) perform in the mall. Which, is pretty amazing since it is a public place and the whole mall could hear it. It was packed too, which is great and they said our mall looked like it had the most attendance. And, it was FREE! I got a flyer for Winter Jam coming up with alot of awesome artist, so me and Mark are going to that in a few weeks
I love concerts...espeically at a good price. Then me, my mom and her friends went to eat, it was alright but they seem to be lacking in the food for the price (and they skimped out on my cheesecake sauce!). Later Mom and I went over to Mark's so she could meet his family and we all went to see The Chronicles of Narnia (minus his mom who "doesn't do movies" hehe). Then, since they are all Duke fans, we all watched the Duke basketball game. Mark wouldn't do his Duke dance infront of my mom, how sad! Saturady was a great day with spending it with my mom and I think my mom and his parents got along well which makes me happy.
Sunday was nothing spectacular, just great muffins for breakfast and mom made soup. yum! I called Christine and Phil on the way back to college, apparently Miss Kaylee is quite something these days. She is talking alot, has some attitude and knows how to turn on the charm. I love that girl.
Friday was kind of bad though (I know, my days are all out of order on here). Mark turned on the song "Someday I'll Understand" by Britney Spears, which has a video of her pregnant and has lines such as "I see it all in my baby" and it just scared me. Maybe it's because Kaylee is over a year now and I don't NEED to constantly be in contact with her because I KNOW she is ok. But I'm scared that I'm just forgetting about her. Yeah, I think about her but not like I used to. It's to a point where I hardly even think of her as my daughter anymore. She's not mine I know, but I did give birth to her, doesn't that mean something? We both have our own little lives, seperate from each other yet still we are connected somehow and we can see each other whenever we want, but am I forgetting about her in between those times? I feel like I'm a bad person, or mother, to forget about her for even a second because she is so much to me and changed my life. I'm just confused at our roles now I guess, I don't know what I'm trying to say. It's just weird. Life is weird.
Friday was just plain awful actually. I was grumpy from the moment I woke up and of course, I get snippy with the people I love (aka MARK! I'm sorry...). You know what he did in return? Brought me lilies. That is the kind of guy he is. Oh, how I love him. How did I get so lucky? I was also really upset Friday because here he is bringing me flowers and telling me how amazing I am, and here I am making rude comments back. I feel like I don't deserve him sometimes and how good he is to me, or rather, he doesn't deserve how awful I treat him on these days. He insists that on these days he understands and sees the real Leah in me and that love is unconditional, which includes the bad stuff. Thank you. I just hope someday my mind will wrap around that.
On other news, I just found out a very dear friend of mine from Camp was in a car accident this weekend and is now on life support and unconsious. This really scares me. One, he is an amazing guy and doesn't deserve this. 2 and half years ago he spent a week with me on the Appalachian trail and was like my big brother, making sure if I stumbled on a rock I was ok, kept me warm when we were all stuck in a huge hail storm with no shelter, etc. He is a great friend and even though we don't talk much now, I treasure how much he watched over me. Two, this makes me realize even more how fleeting life is. Who knows when today is our last day. Oh my gosh. Lord, please watch over Will, let him know you are there. Let his family know you are there. Lord, please.
Ok off to read and hopefully go to bed early. I was ready to go to bed at 5, that's kinda sad. ha!
